Currently Listening O By Damien Rice cheers darlin' see related

Well I'd say it's about time for another happy entry from me.  I'm at school.  Yes that's right school.  I thought it was high time I actually started pursuing this whole nursing career future thing.  So I'm starting with Biology and English.  So far it's been good.  I've had a lot of catching up to do, but this is so far a pretty good indication of what I can expect  for next year.  Long days and no sleep, and studying/ writing papers in between.It is exciting though. 

I am now working in Redding again.  I'm at the Lake Blvd. store for those of you in town.  So far I have been doing closing shifts, I really like it.  I was surprised at how many people I already knew at this store, and I love the fact that they get together all of the tiem out side of work.  I haven't had that kind of work dynamic since I lived in Tahoe.  Anyway, one of the best parts of it is that I filled my gas tank on Monday, it's now Friday and I still have half of a tank left. normally I would have refueled at least once by now, but more likely twice.  YAY!!! 

I'm slowly working on moving into a house as well.  I painted my room a chocolate brown color.  I know it's dark, and actually I'm pretty surprised that it's the color I chose, but there is a door connecting my room to a green house, so I thought it would be nice to bring in a kind of 'tree-ish' feeling.  It's me so there will definitly be very bright things all over the place, but I like the idea of a kind of serene base to the room.  Anyway, the rest of the house is neat.  It's layout is crazy, but then it was built by hippies. :0)  It's about 5 miles out of town.  Which I think will be nice.  It'll be quiet.  It's also really close to the river trail.  There is an entrance to it at the end of the street, so I have good intentions of taking up jogging either in the morning before school, or in the afternoons before work.  I think the afternoons is a bit more likely since I'll be working till midnight. 

Well that's it for now.  Have a fantastic day.

Sarah

Currently Watching Constantine (Widescreen Edition) By Keanu Reeves, Rachel Weisz, Djimon Hounsou see related

Ya so it's been a while since I last worte...thought maybe I should. 

It's been quite interesting being home.  It seems that you get an idea of what things will be like and then, they just never seem to work out that way.  I finally decided to commit to a church, and after a lot of prayer, I'm even working with the youth group.   So far it's going well.

I have to talk about Constantine for a sec.  It's quite intense and normally, the type of content I can't handle at all, but for some reason was able to watch. Twice.  I can't really recommend it to anyone, because, 1.  It will probably scare to poop out of a lot of people and 2.  If you aren't firm in what you believe, and able to discern between God's truth and well, a lot of lies, then It's probably not a good one for you.  But the over all theme of the movie is rediculously interesting, and pretty much all about the spiritual struggle between satan and God for mankind.   Anyway, it's an interesting movie.  I cannot stress enough to you, DO NOT see  it unless you KNOW you can handle it.  and be aware of the fact that it is WAY off base thologically speaking.

Anyway, hope you all have  FANTASTIC day.

Sarah

Currently Playing What Sound [Deluxe] By Lamb see related

Ahhh...I'm in Incline right now kind of escaping work/ life.  It's nice. I had a good drive last night, despite the fact that I for a brief second forgot to stay awake and started to go off the side of the road.  Perhaps I should have turned back since I was just out side of Anderson, but I just couldn't so I turned U2 up loud and did a car dance.  That worked until just outside of chico, so I chugged a Double Shot.  Blah blah, not a very exciting story, but I chugged a total of 6 esspresso shots in a matter of about 4 hours.  That's  a record for me. 

Would you rather have the last name McCorkle, Baldassare, or Wachenschwanz? 

Currently Playing The Best of 1980-1990 By U2 dancing barefoot see related

If I were going to pick a week to post, this is probably the worst week possible to pick.  Because everything feels like crap!  But, some good comes out of this.  if you want to officially think I'm crazy read on below are some writings I discovered, of which I thoroughly agree:

The 'church' feels like a MASSIVE project to me.  I have never been anywhere where with so many Christians, especially Christians my age, but they seem to be caught up in a movement that says "as long as I don't feel convicted it doesn't apply to me".  I'm so afraid for the adults we will all become.  There are so many theories about the end times coming.  That people our age will be the ones to usher in the second coming of Christ, (which I'm not yet fully convinced of) But I find that our generation of Christians really don't want to be any different from the rest of the "secular" world.  I spend most church services inwardly cringing because it all feels like sugar coated garbage,  and the people going all seem so worn out and moldy.  

   I know it's not my responsibility alone, there are a few people that have crossed my path that have the same sort of mind set as me.  It's been very interesting to find them too.  There seems to be this kind of small 'rebellion' starting up.  The best way to describe it is like the colonists dumping the tea into the Charles.  The first step to a massive effort for freedom.  I would guess that there are small bands of such 'rebels' rising up all over the world.  People fed up with the way things are, the way the church is, the sugar coated complacency, the members of the body having no clue which part they are, acting as hands when they are feet, as mouths when they are ears.  This small band has a great responsibility upon their shoulders.  A need to pray and to learn.  A need to study with voracious hunger every word written.  A responsibility to know as much as possible about what is to come.  Perhaps we will "usher in the second coming"  or perhaps we are meant to build up the generations that will.  Regardless, we MUST know our stuff.  We must understand.  We must know and CARE about the battle we were created to fight.  What have we to show for this fight so far?  Complacency, confusion, a rebellious past, anger, frustration, a need for something not seen or recognized for centuries?

  How are we so called Christians any different than our porn addicted, cussing, alcoholic, chain smoking neighbours.  We're not.   But we should be.  There is a difference between holier-than-thou wannabe's and truly holy people, living truly holy lives.  Is it okay swear and smoke and get wasted with a sinner in the name of evangelism? When Jesus hung out with sinners how far did he go?  How much did he drink?  Did he politely refuse more wine?  Did he drink on till he lost his senses?  Were sinners offended by his behaviour, or was it just the 'religious believers'?  Why don't we know anyone in the pews next to us?  Why are we afraid of being rejected at church?  why does everything have to be softened up?  WHERE IS THE TRUTH???  WHERE IS THE REALITY???  

There has to be something different about us if we want to see a difference in others.  So far, we are just the same as them, except we are 'sanctified' when we cuss and smoke and sleep around and do drugs and look at porn.  We think we're in the middle of a world wide Christian movement...perhaps we are...but who started this movement?  God or people who needed something to make them high?  God is not a drug.  I fear that in our search for a place of belonging, we have destroyed the beauty of what God left us when Jesus returned to heaven.  What was the first church like?  Would it ever work in this modern world?